The Little Things

Its crazy how fast family can irritate you. Just in a split second you forget all the years prior and everything they have done for you just because your upset about something that is probably so small. I'm really good at that, treating everyone around me like garbage just because my feelings are hurt. ive been trying to work on it but in that second all I see is red and I cant calm down, I'm especially good at trying to hurt peoples feelings just so they can feel what I feel. lately its gotten a lot worse ive made a conclusion that its because I'm a week away from going to college, so I figured if everyone is mad at me then it will make the goodbye harder. That's not what I want though. ill never admit that to anyone but I want this goodbye to be very emotional I want to miss everyone and I want everyone to miss me. So the question I need to ask my self is why do I let insignificant problems blow up into huge arguments? Its so easy to just say "Robbi let it go" but to actually do it is so much more difficult than it seems. I want to remember the good times and how much love my family has for me, not that I blew up on my mom because she said I left the ranch out when I didn't. I need to learn to appreciate the little things in life because in the end they will all come together and create this huge picture that god made possible.