So She Wrote

Its crazy how fast family can irritate you. Just in a split second you forget all the years prior and everything they have done for you just because your upset about something that is probably so small. I'm really good at that, treating everyone around me like garbage just because my feelings are hurt. ive been trying to work on it but in that second all I see is red and I cant calm down, I'm especially good at trying to hurt peoples feelings just so they can feel what I feel. lately its gotten a lot worse ive made a conclusion that its because I'm a week away from going to college, so I figured if everyone is mad at me then it will make the goodbye harder. That's not what I want though. ill never admit that to anyone but I want this goodbye to be very emotional I want to miss everyone and I want everyone to miss me. So the question I need to ask my self is why do I let insignificant problems blow up into huge arguments? Its so easy...

Given this is my very first post, I hope everyone goes easy on me. I guess that's really only if anyone reads this? Any who I had this huge story planned out in my head for this title but now that I've started I decided to take a very different turn. For those that don't know anything about me, I just graduated high school in May and honestly still don't know how to describe my feelings during that time of my life. I guess one could say it was a mixture of every feeling possible, yeah that pretty much sums it up, I felt every single emotion possible during the month of May. I was so ready to just be done with high school, I wanted to grow up. Completely ignoring every adult when they said "be a kid while you can cause it goes so fast." Its not that I hated it cause I didn't I actually really loved high school and I still don't get why some people look shocked that I say that lol. I truly think I try and rush things just so I don't have to think abo...