Re-Reading Old Chapters
Given this is my very first post, I hope everyone goes easy on me. I guess that's really only if anyone reads this? Any who I had this huge story planned out in my head for this title but now that I've started I decided to take a very different turn. For those that don't know anything about me, I just graduated high school in May and honestly still don't know how to describe my feelings during that time of my life. I guess one could say it was a mixture of every feeling possible, yeah that pretty much sums it up, I felt every single emotion possible during the month of May. I was so ready to just be done with high school, I wanted to grow up. Completely ignoring every adult when they said "be a kid while you can cause it goes so fast." Its not that I hated it cause I didn't I actually really loved high school and I still don't get why some people look shocked that I say that lol. I truly think I try and rush things just so I don't have to think about them ending or get scared of something new.
This actually brings up why this title has such a significance. I never got the closure I needed from high school. No I don't mean that I stay up all night thinking about the good ol' days or walking down the hall way. What I mean is every since I was in elementary school I couldn't wait to go to high school, the long hallways, big books, lots of homework, dumb things like that got me excited about the future. Fast forward and then I spend 4 brutally long years getting exactly what I asked for. Then all the sudden I look up from my pile of homework and it's my senior year. Where did the time go? Of course senior year I did some reflecting and took a look at everything that high school has given me. For some it was the love of their life, for others it was the challenge or it was sports, but for me it was the opportunity to find who I truly was as a person. I'm most definitely not saying high school was the best time of my life or I wish I could go back, what I am saying is it was a huge part of my life and helped shaped the person I am today. We spend 9 years preparing, 4 years enduring, then we are just suppose to forget about it as soon as we walk across that stage? To the group of people that instantly say "He/She's stuck in High School" whenever they mention one thing about the past, I just want you to know it's okay to hold on to the good parts that happened in life. Up until just now I always felt childish and overly emotional even thinking about the last 4 years. But what I just realized is if everyone just "let go" of the past whenever they started something new, you wouldn't be the same person you are today. Every bad thing that happens, every good thing that happens, is just another tool that is helping shape the person you will become. Fighting that would be equivalent to refusal of your own growth. What I just learned is that it's OKAY to re-read old chapters, as long as you don't try to re-live them. Everyone deserves a chance to remember a time where they felt loved and happy and content, and if you feel you have the right to judge based on what that time was, then maybe you should re-read some of your own chapters and find the line that all the sudden made you God.
This actually brings up why this title has such a significance. I never got the closure I needed from high school. No I don't mean that I stay up all night thinking about the good ol' days or walking down the hall way. What I mean is every since I was in elementary school I couldn't wait to go to high school, the long hallways, big books, lots of homework, dumb things like that got me excited about the future. Fast forward and then I spend 4 brutally long years getting exactly what I asked for. Then all the sudden I look up from my pile of homework and it's my senior year. Where did the time go? Of course senior year I did some reflecting and took a look at everything that high school has given me. For some it was the love of their life, for others it was the challenge or it was sports, but for me it was the opportunity to find who I truly was as a person. I'm most definitely not saying high school was the best time of my life or I wish I could go back, what I am saying is it was a huge part of my life and helped shaped the person I am today. We spend 9 years preparing, 4 years enduring, then we are just suppose to forget about it as soon as we walk across that stage? To the group of people that instantly say "He/She's stuck in High School" whenever they mention one thing about the past, I just want you to know it's okay to hold on to the good parts that happened in life. Up until just now I always felt childish and overly emotional even thinking about the last 4 years. But what I just realized is if everyone just "let go" of the past whenever they started something new, you wouldn't be the same person you are today. Every bad thing that happens, every good thing that happens, is just another tool that is helping shape the person you will become. Fighting that would be equivalent to refusal of your own growth. What I just learned is that it's OKAY to re-read old chapters, as long as you don't try to re-live them. Everyone deserves a chance to remember a time where they felt loved and happy and content, and if you feel you have the right to judge based on what that time was, then maybe you should re-read some of your own chapters and find the line that all the sudden made you God.
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